Unanswered texts. Unanswered phone calls. Feeling shitty. Crowded thoughts. Self-pity. I’m done. I hate the self-loathing me and I’m leaving her behind.
I’m going to this beach party on Saturday and also agreed to go to a birthday lunch thing for my aunt on the same day. It feels weird trying to be social again when I cut everyone off so I can focus on the NCLEX. Maybe this is a blessing. I will take the time I need for myself and I will continue to go for the exam hopefully by next week.
I was at the lover’s house and we were talking to his niece about school when out of nowhere she starts talking about what she wants for her birthday. “I WANT A FROZEN CASTLE”, she made sure we heard. I asked her when her birthday is (in 3 months) and the lover says that he will need to concentrate on my birthday first.
My birthday? I COMPLETELY forgot that my birthday is in 2 weeks. I’ve decided I was turning 22 again. 22-2 to be exact.
Logan and Victor give their love <3
I didn’t pass.
I never thought I’d feel like such a failure.
I was always the one who got good grades. Whenever I tried things, I only need one time to perfect it. The sassy, sarcastic girl who has a sharp tongue, but can back it up because I was intelligent.
But still, I didn’t pass.
I am horrified. I have alot of self confidence, but this test completely burnt me out. All those hours of studying, saying “no” to hanging out so I can hit the books, saying “no” to drink outs because I needed to go online and try out practice questions.. Feels like such a waste now.
I hope I snap out of this soon.
I hate the me I am now.
Oh. Hi. Lol.
I know I haven’t been on in forever. Just got caught up with all the nursing school madness. But great news.. I PASSED!!! After all the craziness, tears, all-nighters, headaches, and emotional roller coaster, I actually made it through. Had a pinning ceremony on December 14, 2014 and I have already turned in an application to the Guam Board of Nurse Examiners to take the NCLEX. Just waiting on my email =)
Logan and Victor are as healthy as ever. And as crazy as ever. My next post will consist of their pictures.
I’m trying to get my thoughts together, so prepare for some posts over the course of this week.
Hey guys. Were having another car wash! 🚗✈ This time at Shell near Kmart (Across JFK) on June 29, 2014 from 9:00am – 4:00pm. Tickets are $5.00 each or more if you’d like to donate 😘 Come and support your future LPNs! We hope to see you there! 💋
One more thing. Belated..
From Victor and Logan
Sorry. Big ABC’s Revenge fan and for you guys who hasn’t watched the Season 3 finale, I definitely killed one of the surprises. Just ONE. Don’t worry. A lot more shit happens. Lol.
Hello guys. Its been a hectic month. But let me bring you up to speed. I passed our first semester!! One semester down. Two to go. Had a five day break and now back for the summer semester. Actually. First day of class is in approximately 7 hours. Yes. I know I should be sleeping. What subjects do we have.. Nursing trends. Mental Health. And Med Surg I and II. Fun. 😒
My birthday was six days ago. Yes. I accept belated greetings. And it was simple like I wanted it to be. Food and friends. Quality time with the Hulk and my boboys. And that was basically it. Happy 20-something to me. 🎂
Mothership is back from the Philippines. Grandma had a mild heart attack, was in the ICU for a while, but is now back home in Cavite. And strong as ever. Praying for continuing great health and strength. I love you, Mama Chit! (That IS the right spelling and NOT pronounced the way you’re thinking.)
That’s basically it. I keep forgetting that I have the WordPress app on my phone and I keep promising to blog more. But I am trying.
Hope we have a good first day.
Have a good night everyone. 😙